Just a little bit of advice, don't move to San Diego, it's the meth capital of the world out here in east county.
I see so many brunt out tweekers at the swap meet every weekend. Some are reformed and are getting their lives together, but some look like they're selling all their worldly posessions for just another hit of crystal.
I lived in SD back in 1996 and remember the shit being everywhere. Never tried it though. Im in Florida, the shits everywhere here. And the dude is cool with fronting me the shit.
Im going in to a rehab, fuck this.
Can anyone here help me find a good state funded rehab? I can barely walk, let alone organize this. I want to tell my Mom on Mother's Day I'm going in.
How old are you? I'm not trying to sound like a dick, and hopefully this isn't just some dumb message board gag..but if it is true, you need to put the brakes on and really commit to changing this behavior. Speaking from experience, it takes a very serious commitment to sort that kind of thing out. It's too steep of a downhill slope to bullshit around and stall on correcting it.
How the hell are you on a 2 week meth binge and still making sense in your posts? I would have been outside bugging out because DEA was hiding in my bushes and trees...and that would have started WAY before the 2 week mark.
Get your mind right and ditch that shit,man. Seriously.
crack? meth? dude. dont even wait til Mothers Day. if you really wanted to kick it you'd go to a hospital so they can lead you in the right direction now.
you arent kicking it for yer mom. youre doing it for you.
I hear you man, I don't know how this happened so fast. Im dead serious about this shit. Im 31 and as far as the DEA shit, that was yesterday when my supply was still up. The most paranoid state of mind I have ever experienced. I thought the cops were at my house so many times. I am basically chilled out because I want to stop, as far as typing I think I am coherent because I want to reach out and try to get help anywhere I can.
In my working life, I was invovled in organising a community forum on crystal meth here in oz in late 2006 since it had received a bit of media attention here.
We had presenters from Hospitals in Kings cross (Sydney) as well as psychologists and other experts... man some of this shit that people said about ice were straight killing it... your brain, that is. Made me never wanna even think about trying it. The two docos we showed there were also pretty bone-chilling. I still have copies of them somewhere.
I look so bad dude, totally different then 2 weeks ago. My skin shows a sheen of the drug. My teeth kill, Im absolutely nasty right now. The smell is driving me crazy, the sweat.
Remember how you feel right now. I used to have a pretty nasty little coke habit for a while, and there were two things that made me kick it. One - feeling how I felt when that shit was on the down swing. Made me hate myself. Once you sober up for good, you never want to feel like that again. I've had so many offers to holler at some lines since then, and I never have, because I know what's on the other side of that door. Two - Seeing my girlfriend at the time go through some serious withdrawl. Self destructiveness is one thing, but watching someone you love go through it is a whole other. Mostly though, you have to learn to be okay with being you without the drug. I wish you best of luck, man. Just be strong.
My mother has witnessed all of this but doesn't know what Im doing. I feel like someone's stabbing me in the stomach when I think of how she must feel seeing me do this. damn man, fuck.
My mother has witnessed all of this but doesn't know what Im doing. I feel like someone's stabbing me in the stomach when I think of how she must feel seeing me do this. damn man, fuck.
My mother has witnessed all of this but doesn't know what Im doing. I feel like someone's stabbing me in the stomach when I think of how she must feel seeing me do this. damn man, fuck.
u stabbin urself
I mean I've had anxiety attacks but this is insane. Its like sharp ass pains in the gut. I want to remember this.
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I see so many brunt out tweekers at the swap meet every weekend. Some are reformed and are getting their lives together, but some look like they're selling all their worldly posessions for just another hit of crystal.
Dude, get some help if this is for reals.
If you're the type to really go on a two-week bender, it will probably kill you.
I'll bet everybody on this board has said that about somewhere near their hometown.
Meth is everywhere everywhere.
Im going in to a rehab, fuck this.
Can anyone here help me find a good state funded rehab? I can barely walk, let alone organize this. I want to tell my Mom on Mother's Day I'm going in.
Im gonna man, I can't fuck with this one. I appreciate you giving a fuck dude, thanks.
Crack. I never went to rehab for it though. Ive been avoiding rehab for the last ten years.
How the hell are you on a 2 week meth binge and still making sense in your posts? I would have been outside bugging out because DEA was hiding in my bushes and trees...and that would have started WAY before the 2 week mark.
Get your mind right and ditch that shit,man. Seriously.
you arent kicking it for yer mom. youre doing it for you.
seriously dude. get help. dont wait.
We had presenters from Hospitals in Kings cross (Sydney) as well as psychologists and other experts... man some of this shit that people said about ice were straight killing it... your brain, that is. Made me never wanna even think about trying it. The two docos we showed there were also pretty bone-chilling. I still have copies of them somewhere.
u stabbin urself
I tried it like 4 days after I got out. Brilliant, ey?
I mean I've had anxiety attacks but this is insane. Its like sharp ass pains in the gut. I want to remember this.