The Scariest Shit I've Ever Had To Admit
Guzzo
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so this morning I woke up with a hangover and some seriously dark thoughts. For those that have been kind enough on the strut to check up on me I'm ready to admit that I have a substance issue. Tonight I am attending my first NA meeting in the hopes of working on improving myself, and since I've always felt like the strut has been like my internet family I felt I had to say something on here. For all those who I've wronged either over the internets or face to face I give an early apology. The feeling within me right now is that of sadness, guilt and relief and I hope over time to become a better person without the dependence of drugs.Thank you to all who have rode with me over the last year and my weird as fuck issues, y'all are some seriously solid people who keep me believing in the kindness of man.t-minus 1 hour til I attend my first meeting-Adam
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HOPE YOU can still puff the ganj.
nah, the green stuff is all part of the issue, made some really stupid moves while baked. The weird thing is I never even liked smoking in public but found myself doing it anyways. For the last 2 years I've been driving around with a travel pipe, which, for someone who started puffing just to hear good rackords the best way possible in privacy was a very bad look.
Not sure if I'm a weed addict or not but for now I need to kill my dependence on all types of shit
There's no turning back.
for real....
And just remember, life is a marathon. It's about perseverance. Baby steps and believe.
records?
just playing. good luck guzzo
If you want to, post or pm what the meeting was like. Im interested.
Good luck, Adam. I'm rooting for you to succeed, bruh!!!
Peace,
Big Stacks from Kakalak
peace.
but guys , shouldn't you refer to him as "a***" ? that is the 'cool' thing to do around here, but his name is all up in this post.
(Please see the original post)
Paco
i quit cold turkey 4 months ago
no NA no ,consulors
if I can do it I KNOW you can
its not that hard
its the booze/hard drugs[which i didn't have a problem with]
that will really fuck you up
my only problem with the herb was that it was an all or nothing deal
i couldn't just take 2 tokes and chill
which equaled a minimum of 3-5 full big ass spliffs of the chron a day to the head=500 a month
fuck that
go man go
^ This is what I currently struggle with in my program as recovery is a fairly new concept for me as well. The only thing I can say is keep going...you may think these people are so much worse, not you at all, etc. (I am a ganj fiend that likes to drink more than I should, so I know I do) but that is part of your addict talking...the voice inside your head telling you you should go top this first meeting is the right one. All addicts think they are teminally unique, best of luck and keep going.
That's real Big dude of you to come out and admit something like that. Seriously, I'm really impressed with how you handle your shit. You gained many levels of respect from me. You're dude of dude's in my book, and you always got some family in Vegas, man.
- Diego
The Electrifying Mojo used to tell us in the Midnight Funk Association here in Detroit "When at the end of your rope, tie a knot, hang in there, the journey of a thousand steps starts with the first one".
And as someone mentioned before, don't let a few strong personalities turn you away from meetings, don't let anyone chase you out of those rooms. The 12 steps are really the best thing going for addicts who want freedom.
MCF
stay strong big fella.
a.
I know you have been figuring this out for a while and have a real grip on where you are and where you need to go. I know you will get there.
Dan
I went to a NA meeting with a friend of mine who has been sober for 2 years, immediately after arriving he told me this isn't the place for me and we ended up at an AA meeting instead. It was really nice and one of the more beautiful parts of it was the talk about "living sober" going beyond drug use and not making dumb moves to replace your use. I can't tell you how much I identified with that.
To all the people who have contacted me in the last day thank you, y'all are seriously shining stars and help me in remaining hopeful through all the bleak shit I've been dealing with